PHE门前不远有棵巨大的Jacaranda。刚搬来LA的时候不认识这种树，只觉得秃秃的。第一年到了学校办毕业典礼时候突然的盛开出紫色的花朵，才不由得赞叹真美。不迭和毕业的朋友在树下留影道别。每年都是5月的时候会盛开，整个城市都被这树点缀起来了。每年也是这个时候和一些朋友在毕业典礼上道别。

Jacaranda花依旧开了，今年的主角算我自己。穿上红袍的感觉还真是挺难形容的。老板不能亲自来hooding，算是留下些小小的遗憾。

First, it was a novel I bought last year. I only read the first half and then left it in the lab before heading to Singapore. I always wanted to finish it but once again, it was not with me to San Jose.

Then I watched the trailer in the summer and waited till this winter for this motion picture. I have to say, the second half plot is more intense than I have expected. A very personal story infused with Islamic roots makes me feel even one of the most chaos places in this world is not barren at all, at least for some moments. This was also the time that I learned a bit of Sunni and Shia Muslims.

I personally feel this movie is more incredible than Lust, Caution, in the sense both of them got Golden Globe nominations. 

So long I have been staying in a state with pleasant weather; I have almost totally forgotten the foliage season. Nature plays magic saturating leaves in flame, amber and gold, while these are rarely noticeable in my daily routine. I had planned a short getaway to find this lost wonder, but it was submerged by misc reasons, like being retarded. 

Finally, I had a wonderful trip up to Lake Tahoe over the weekend. The ski season is not started, but a few people. The foliage is not so impressive as the ones in Northeast, yet they are pure and gleaming in breeze. I just loved it. A very tranquil and refreshing experience.

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To Xian:

It's wonderful that you have made up your mind following the way you want to do. It's also a good remind for me: If there is something you don't like, either you do something to get over, or make ways to eschew, at least to learn to bear. Worst is keep complaining and do nothing. A good tip at the right moment.

Best for your new startup, in Shanghai!

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Defying Gravity

fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too
Cna yuo raed tihs?
i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh?

"Our minds are chain reactions of chemical particles...consciousness is merely energy circuit in motion, which is perceived subjectively. It is only a dream and there are imaginations of it, constantly changing."

I believe the intrinsic piece of my mind is far more trusted than the extrinsic counterpart. That's why I believe in "Defying Gravity". All that matter is what I keep holding on. Although the "Wicked Witch on the West" is infamous, there is good essence inside her ego. 

I'd like to see lots of things, but different. I'd like to make up my mind, by myself.

Went to OIS and got my CPT... so I will move again.

So I will not have a Yellowstone trip in this summer.

So I will miss the opportunity to watch "Wicked". The most popular song in the show is "Defying Gravity".

Bye-bye, my LA! At least for another half a year!

Nothing Lasts Forever 

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

I was off for quite long. Wrote piece by piece when staying in Shanghai, but was not able to wrap them up. I still couldn't purge these mess, so just put them in an instinctive way.

It was very hilarious on the night @Live Bar. I didn't expect to have so many stunning performance when walked into that shabby house. It was improv Rock'n Roll. Clearly eveyone knew the place is for nothing but the music straight, and we were obsesive with it. I'd rather say spending the whole nite there is much more fun than having some drink in Xin Tian Di listening to those flat sounds. I was so sick to see the people and their spirit in this city. 

Hang out with lots of friends. Heard of good news, bad news. My record is 4 appointments in a row. There is so much change as the city does, maybe even more than that. Am I still get used to the things I was familiar with? Put into another way, I realized that I am kind of useless in the sense that I could only promise to be back soon.

Sometime it's not the matter how I decide things, the aftermath is already there. It the matter of how I accept that. But for god's sake, at least I wish there is some prophecy in this world.

Life is brilliant, be positive, be strong!

"You're Beautiful"

My life is brilliant.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me out of the subway.
She is with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high,
And I don't know when I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I don't know when I will be with you.

Oscars might not be the highest award in terms of the arts. Especially the fact that Sundance Festival is opening these days reminds me that there could be some movies with no big commercial yet still extrodinary. But these two movies are kinda low budget and most importantly, I was moved.

PS: Having finished this blog, I found out that LA already has become the city where I've been for the longest period in US. Time passed so quickly!!!